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Friday, December 17, 2010

We

Why
do I do this to you,
me,
you?

Us.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Haven't

One day, I'll write something different.

I'll write words you've always wanted me to write,
always knew I could write,
but haven't.

Words I've always wanted to write,
but haven't found yet,
haven't been able to identify,
linguistically.

Feelings to words.
I haven't figured that part out yet.
Not the conversions,
the feelings.
I can't write what I feel if
I can't know what I feel if
I can't think what I feel if
I don't feel.

But I do feel.
And one day,
new words will write exactly what you know I've been feeling all along,
but I haven't.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

TEXTra Large

|::| so i'm sitting here bored in caroline's room, on the verge of dozing off, without so much as a tv to keep me occupied, and i decided to type the longest text message verizon will allow. i don't know how long that is, exactly, but judging from the "110/160" in the top left and the "2/7" in the top right, i'd guess that i have seven pages worth of 160 characters, which makes.. 1120 characters? yea. however, i did notice that as i exhausted the second set (and now the third) of characters, the renumbering started not at zero, but at nine. so in reality i only have 151x7+9 characters.. 1066, the year of the Battle of Hastings, the normans' victory over the english and the ultimate end of the Dark Ages in England. (see? i DO pay attention in class.) my professor joked that the only two dates british schoolchildren are required to memorise are 1066 and 1966, the year of England's lone World Cup victory. i miss soccer. 9v9 intramural simply cannot compare. 20 minute halves? seriously? only four games?? we need to join a league in Roanoke. STOP. |::|

Monday, November 15, 2010

Borrowed Works 3: Your Moon

" You need a shepherd,
you need a shepherd.
You need someone to keep you over the weather.
With your eyes closed,
in your old clothes,
I'll let the night float you up like a feather.

I never caused you any trouble.
I never try to stop what's coming.

Just let me keep you covered.
Just let me keep you covered.
Just let me keep you, keep you...

I just wanted to be your moon,
alone in your night sky.
Each morning you try to slip away,
but I'll be back by your side
when the darkness overtakes the way.

You need a shepherd,
you need a shepherd.
You need someone to keep you within your windows.
With your eyes closed,
another branch grows.
Won't let them know when you undo your shadows.

I never caused you any trouble.
I never try to stop what's coming.

Just let me keep you covered.
Just let me keep you covered.
Just let me keep you, keep you...

I just wanted to be your moon,
alone in your night sky.
Each morning you try to slip away,
but I'll be back by your side
when the darkness overtakes the way.

(I see your eyes close,
I see your eyes close.) "

Sun Airway

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Check or All-in?

I don't want to be dangerously close,
on the edge.
I want to go full throttle
or just to forget about it.

Well, Frankly...

So you really do read this.
huh.

Thank you.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

WB

A tee-shirt that had the Warner Brothers' "WB" logo on it:

"If you see the police,
Warn a Brotha"

:P

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Dead Melodies


When

I sit
in this familiar place,
and nothing’s the same,
and I stare
at this unbroken guitar
and wonder why
I can’t play at

will

today, I think of
yesterday,
and of the music I used to play,
and of

you

beside me, smiling
and encouraging,
and laughing
as you sang a random chorus to
my random tune.
Without you, I’ll

be

empty and alone.
Silence consumes
this once familiar place.
The music is gone,
and nothing’s left.
Why can
no amount of time
make this song sound

alright?

Monday, October 18, 2010

Fetus songs

I have three or four ideas for songs in my head that I haven't had time to start developing. I have lyrics written down, and full musical backdrops in my head, but no way to fully pull them from my head to GarageBand.
And by no way, I mean no time. Or no full privacy. Or quietude. Or anything.
They actually all have similar sounds, even, so they all fit with the album I'm trying to work on.
That being said, it's difficult enough to work on one song well, let alone three or four simultaneously.

As for the title of this post: these are all songs that have been conceived, but are still imprisoned within me, yet to see the light of day. Unborn.
Fetus songs.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Hair

I can't decide if I miss my longer-lengthed, bushy, poofy hair or not.

The new hawtness.

Oh, hello heater... you're here a little early.
Nice to make your acquaintance.
...

YOU SUCK.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Words of Randomnity 3: Inside

Inside

Something's stuck inside our head.

The monstrous beast we fed,
it's melody dead.
This thing we led, 'til it's feet turned red
to the bed that laid ahead.
The bed inside our head.

This beast feasts 'til we take it east,
or so I'm told at least.
To a park of riches, greed, and pride,
where every monster gets a ride,
and all of us can only hide,
cowering to either side
of the eyes
of the beast.

But if we best the monster's jest;
fool the pest and take it west,
to where a pure but unseen chest
will have us blessed and dispossessed.

Only then will we pass the test
and finally put the thing to rest.

We must be wary of where we tread,
for something's stuck inside our head.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

La Avalancha de Agua

La Avalancha de Agua

It falls.

Gentle droplets careen their way to the earth,
their paths untrue,
their destinations unclear.
Each speck impacts another
branch,
petal,
blade.

Darkness shrouds;
solar absence, lunar disability.
The sky is encompassed by grey, and in the night,
colours are extinct.
And yet…

fallen leaves drenched in Mother’s tears
refract some otherworldly illuminations.
Autumn’s oranges and browns are strangely rediscovered.
The beauty of the evanescent glow
impeccable, if only for a fleeting second.

Apacible.

A break in the foliage,
a trodden path,
a bridge dividing the flowing creek.

Silence is
the constant rush of the waterfall,
the pitter-patter of the rain’s relentless barrage.
And yet…

the salvo is just beginning.
Empieza.
The arboreal ceiling starts to give way.
The rippled pond
reflects some otherworldly light
with a twist of abstraction.
Even the lilies sway with the turbulence,
buckling under the pressure of
the deluge.

Glimmering blobs dangling from fig trees,
the inconsolable needles of blue ice,
elephant ears flopping with discontent.

Smothered.

La lluvia ha ganado,
the splendour and serenity overpowered by
its obstinacy.
The darkness has enveloped the world,
concealed la belleza.

Absence of colour,
absence of quietude,
absence of tranquillity.
And yet…

la oscuridad de la noche es
hermosa.

Perdido

Ausente eres,
el español.

Me entristece,
no existes en esta vida.
¿Qué ocurrió?

¿Era la francés?
En verdad, no me gusta nada la francés. Eres la única idioma que puedo amar.
Sí, amar.

Te amo, español.

Por favor, vuélvame.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Borrowed Works 2: Relief

" Flash flood,
you got too comfortable so
I showed you
who's really in control.
You gave
all of your savings to the poor.

Lightning
on the river and you're
shivering
with your fishing pole.
Same night,
you bought a ring and you proposed.

You never really know what you can't really see.
I'll be fair, I'll be fair.
You made it out alive, oh, what a relief.
I'll be fair, I'll be fair.

Earthquake
in your pajamas huddled
in doorways
while your houses sway.
Blue blood,
pumping like a hunter's fist.

I love the shape
your faces make.
Oh my,
thank you for keeping me safe.
Even though you know
it don't always go that way.

You never really know what you can't really see.
I'll be there, I'll be there.
You made it out alive, oh what a relief.
I'll be there, I'll be there.

And everything will be explained.
Your wild guess,
everything will be explained.
Go ahead,
everything will be explained.

Your wild guess,
and everything will be
explained. "

Cold War Kids

OXM

Extraordinarily ordinary.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Words of Randomnity 2: Out of Distress

Out of Distress

You were a mess.
Attacked by a vulture who could
sense weakness,
sense demise.
Attacked by a cheetah who could
outlast you,
outrun you;
outmanoeuvre you.
It took hold of you.

At best, you had second place.
F
o
l
low
i
n
g
the Leader. Leashed, having the freedom of
the outside world, but still
held back.

You threw it all out.
Took off the chains,
chucked them away. And now you're
out.
You forgot about it all. You didn't know it would
be
so
easy.
Your loaded pistol was the only one not
disappointed in you.

(Nonchalance wouldn't have
saved you.)

Action.
Your trash can's full of
all the inadequacies that
consumed you,
splattered with the
red ink you used to send
it
off.

Nothing's left.
The burdens that you kept
hold of are gone.
Everything you've ever hated
is T lying on the floor
in
a
heap
by an empty shell.

Care
fills your wastebasket.
It's out of you.
You're out of it.
Y o u ' r e o u t o f d i s t r e s s .

Friday, September 10, 2010

Brr.

I shaved off my mustache, and now my philtrum gets cold.

Monday, August 23, 2010

You

Would you ever even notice

if I posted these words about you

unless I told you to read them?

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Words of Randomnity 1: Telepathic Soulwaves

Telepathic Soulwaves

If you could read my soul:
a bridge without a toll,
cashews in a bowl,
rock and roll.

If you could read my mind,
do you know what you'd find?
some abnormal kind
of enigma.

An unusual perception
of the perfect deception
is the only lie
that I'd like to try.

If it's money you want
then it's poison you'll get.
We'll watch the venom
burn you from inside out.

Tuesdays

Today is Tuesday.
New music Tuesday, DVD/bluray release Tuesday..

Every Tuesday from here on out I'm going to try to post a poem from my series entitled Words of Randomnity, of which I have already completed the first 5.

Emphasis on try.

Unequilibrium

How can something that is nothing
be everything that matters?

Monday, May 31, 2010

Haven't

Contentment is overrated.

Happiness is where it's at.

I just want to fit in.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Koopa

"waterwaterwaterwaterwaterwaterwater
pipe
waterwaterwater
zappy thingy
waterwaterwaterwaterwaterwaterwaterwaterwaterwater
other zappy th-- crap!
waterwaterwater
.. darn. stupid monkey."

Saturday, May 29, 2010

The way things were and ought to be

Straight film:
unpredictable.

Several disastrous,
but a few magnificent.

Worth it?

Most definitely.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

TILT

It's odd to look in a tilted mirror and see yourself slant-ways.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Lo

It's 5.30 a.m., and I'm still awake.

Not newly awoken, not roused in the middle of the night by a dream.
Still awake.

What does that make me?
What have I become?

Nothing has changed, yet everything is different.

I have embraced the things I used to hide from,
used to cower from,
block out of my head.
The thoughts, the very notions.

Trying to pluck out guitar lines of songs we haven't the faintest idea how to play.
At 3 in the morning.
Seems like a pointless, boring activity..

but something about it simply makes it fun.
Amazing, even.

Taking what we have in stride, and running with it,
not thinking of where it takes us.

Because it doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter that the day doesn't end until 4 in the morning.
We enjoy it.
I enjoy it.

When tomorrow is so uncertain, today is all I have.
And today
I am happy.

Dozing on shoulders while testing our vocabulary skills for Africa
until 2.30 in the morning.
Because we don't want it to end.
I don't want it to end.

Not necessarily the guitar playing, nor the quizzes.
But the idea. The concept.
I don't want it to end.

I don't want today to end.


(footnote: it's 5.30 a.m., I still have One Last Breath by Creed stuck in my head, and I didn't have to edit this post for mistakes.)

Monday, May 10, 2010

Borrowed Works 1: Vampire Voltage No. 6

" I don't know what I want, but I know
this feeling's creeping under my bones.
And I know that it's time I go,
but it's time that's got its teeth in me.
And I want you to fix your eyes
on something that could be beautiful.
If you could teach me to lose my soul,
just one per cent of what I know.

La la laa la la la la la ah.
La la laa la la la ah la.

La la laa la la la la la ah.
La la laa la la la ah la.

Vampire voltage,
in my soul.

Vampire voltage.
Rolling around and we're rolling. "

Beck

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Alter Ego

Maybe in another life...

but this one is full.

(Not that I'd have the chance anyway.)

Monday, April 26, 2010

I shutter at the notion...


So, the intricacies of photography are remarkable.
Time may pass on as usual, but 15 seconds can elapse and be brought beautifully together into one still shot.
A single shot, and yet 15 seconds worth of photos crammed into one.

Light, streaks of light that we cannot ourselves view continuously, is shown to us in a way we never even knew could exist.

It is truly remarkable.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Shoes

I determine which shoes I am going to wear for the day by what two matching socks I pull out of the hamper first.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

New York, New York...

How I already miss the city.

The constant horns, the angry drivers, the "yea, well, I'm taking your right of way from you" attitudes.
The casual walkers, the mile-long treks, the endless passerbys.
The convenient inconveniences, the impossible possibilities, the illogical desires.
Subways, the Taco Truck, parallel parking.

The city is mysterious.
It has its own charm.
Everything you expect to hate, you quickly come to love.
There is no reason, no single explanation you can come up with for why it is so alluring.
Because in all reality, none exist.

The city is crowded, expensive, unclean, and angry.
Road rage?
Mabye on a calm day...

And yet.. these detriments come to be the very factors that draw you in.
Why?
.. let me re-phrase that.
WHY?

I have no idea.
Middle America snubs its nose at the notion of New York City living..

... only because it hasn't experienced confusion for itself.

Yes, confusion.
Because that's precisely what it is:
confusing.
It's cranky, yet content.
It's busy, yet relaxing.
It's taxing, yet refreshing.

Nothing, nothing beats a view of the florescence of Manhattan's skyline at night from across the East River.
Nothing beats the Hipster Town uniqueness of Williamsburg.
Nothing beats the immense eye-of-the-storm tranquility of Central Park.

The vast differences a single mile makes are incredible.
Suburban Queens to bouncing Brooklyn.
Bouncing Brooklyn to corporate Downtown.
Corporate Downtown to commercial Midtown.
Commercial Midtown to residential Uptown.
... and then there's the Bronx.

Each and every one is essentially a different world.

The varieties are infinite.
Never would I be able to see all that the city has to show me.
It is simply impossible.

And yet, that is not a reason for disappointment.
It is a reason for hope.
For excitement.
For never would life be bland in the city.
Never would there be nothing to do.

New York, New York...

.. how I miss thee.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Photography

A photo.

A single photo.

An instant, captured forever.
A mere jiffy of the never ending scope of time, snatched out of the flow and immortalised.
The essences of every being, every object of the scene caught and framed, to be praised and admired for longer than the scene itself remains intact.

But that's just it:
the scenes are never lost, never erased so long as their pictorial counterparts exist.
Each photo is a monument.
A monument to the past, to the beauty, to the very extravagance that lives in each and every millisecond of existence.
Photography exemplifies such.

The detail.
The detail of every frame of time is remarkable.
No two frames can ever be alike.
And such is life: never can there be two coincident glimpses of the same event.
Of the same phenomenon, for every single instant of time is a phenomenon.
And every single instant is worthy of picture.

Impossible, yes.
Which is simply why each and every photograph must be cherished and glorified for what it is:
a frozen fragment of the massive artistic project that is time.

(If a picture's worth a thousand words,
what's worth a thousand pictures?)

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Sniping

"Oh, headshot.
OH, no scope!!
YEAHHH, SON!!

TEABAG!!! TEABA--

aaaaoww...

sadface."

Friday, March 26, 2010

Silent Defamation

This is really just one big insult, isn't it?

Just another American method of spitting in the Third World's face.
We sit here, dumbly, typing whatever our little hearts desire through the likes of blogspot, facebook, twitter, typing the most insignificant and meaningless of words for the entire world to see.
All the while, there are countless less fortunate who would do anything, anything to get their stories out.

Yet even knowing this does nothing. Sympathy lasts mere seconds before our extremely underrated lifestyles take over once again, compelling us to enlighten the interweb universe as to what our dinner plans are for the evening.

I am the same, of course.
It's our nature; it's how we were brought up. We weren't even told to appreciate the luxuries we have because those luxuries have become life.
A day without a cellphone is perhaps the most torture a Western individual can endure.
We take for granted our luck. Even through failure, we are far more well off than persons who work twice as hard in more dog-eat-dog locations.

And yet, the worst part of this grueling reality is that we can do nothing about it. Our way of life has evolved so much further that we cannot live any other way.
It is simply impossible.

So here I sit, fully clothed on a cushioned seat in a climate controlled room, jamming to my music and chomping on some gum, typing these pointless words to the world, unable to fathom the exorbitant amount of luck I truly have.
It seems unfair.

But such is life.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Blog

blog blog blog blog smog blog blog blog
blog dog blog blog blog frog blog blog
blog blog fog hog blog blog blog blog
blog jog blog blog wog-

wog?

...fail.